POEM: LOST LOVE (I want to understand)

*Based on true story and dedicated to all the Fathers that left their kids.*

Counting years won’t make sense no more,

It has been a million days and years or so.

My little mind couldn’t hold a picture of you for long,

With shoes and dresses you said you will return,

Pick a larger size am a woman now...And

I want to understand, what is taking you so long, I want to know.

As a baby I craved for your warmth,

They said no love would match that of a father.

As a baby I wanted to be protected,

They said no guardian can be compared to Dad’s.

I just wanted to felt what they called normal, but you weren’t there,

And now I want to understand, what made you go, I want to know.

I can tell I was a pretty one, they say I have my mother’s face,

Wasn’t that enough to make you stay, and stare when I sleep?

I wasn’t even stubborn, I swear….

Mama taught me the, “behave like a girl”

I can now dress, clean and cook pretty well too.

This is why I want to understand; why you disappeared, I want to know.

Took me so long to get used to the name Father,

So foreign it sounded, my mind couldn’t interpret.

For it was meaningless, calling without an answer.

I am not blaming you either, perhaps you had reasons,

Is just burning deep inside…and

I want to understand, why you couldn’t hold on, I want to know.

About The Author

                                                                                                  

Julieth Msoffe is a passionate,dynamic and inspiring writer and a blogger at JOURNEY TO SUCCESS.She believes in dreams and readiness to make them a reality as the only drive factor towards a successful future.